Lola Jones (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} pale_fire) wrote,@ 2007-09-11 13:45:00 |
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I'm very happy, calm and relaxed today.
Just recording this state for my dear friend A.
I'm going to do another film with M. as production manager, the shoot at the end of Sep, we had a meeting yesterday and I'm going to watch the auditions later today, it's a story about referendum in a small country town in some anonymous country somewhere between Oz and Eastern Europe, Astrorussia maybe? Aupolandia? Polasia possibly. M. came here from Poland when she was 4 and we had an amazing discussion about her previous films and perceptions of her scripts by fellow Australians, remarkably I was hearing exactly the same things K. has expressed to me before, I didn't really think it would be like that with someone who grew up here. Australians perceive her scripts as depressing, where in fact they are simply reflective/philosophical, I have very mixed feelings about this, I do actually feel like I can relate to Australians and be completely at ease with them, etc., but it doesn't work both ways, they will never understand the Eastern European part of me and it makes sense, they never had the experience of living there and the reason why I can understand them is because I have lived here, so it's not an illusion. Sometimes I ask myself if I'm kidding myself and I don't really understand Australians at all, but I do as much as one Australian can understand another, after all I am Australian. I should re-work my script of the Last day, I really think there's something in it.
It's so quiet today, the grey clouds cover the city and Melbourne is half submerged in rain, the grey of the sky matching the steely skyscrapers. I'm so relaxed I feel I can dissipate into the little rain droplets and turn up in the molecules of someone's soup on Collins st or in a latte on Latrobe.
Just recording this state for my dear friend A.
I'm going to do another film with M. as production manager, the shoot at the end of Sep, we had a meeting yesterday and I'm going to watch the auditions later today, it's a story about referendum in a small country town in some anonymous country somewhere between Oz and Eastern Europe, Astrorussia maybe? Aupolandia? Polasia possibly. M. came here from Poland when she was 4 and we had an amazing discussion about her previous films and perceptions of her scripts by fellow Australians, remarkably I was hearing exactly the same things K. has expressed to me before, I didn't really think it would be like that with someone who grew up here. Australians perceive her scripts as depressing, where in fact they are simply reflective/philosophical, I have very mixed feelings about this, I do actually feel like I can relate to Australians and be completely at ease with them, etc., but it doesn't work both ways, they will never understand the Eastern European part of me and it makes sense, they never had the experience of living there and the reason why I can understand them is because I have lived here, so it's not an illusion. Sometimes I ask myself if I'm kidding myself and I don't really understand Australians at all, but I do as much as one Australian can understand another, after all I am Australian. I should re-work my script of the Last day, I really think there's something in it.
It's so quiet today, the grey clouds cover the city and Melbourne is half submerged in rain, the grey of the sky matching the steely skyscrapers. I'm so relaxed I feel I can dissipate into the little rain droplets and turn up in the molecules of someone's soup on Collins st or in a latte on Latrobe.
